It's fairly early, and I'm at home and anticipating what will be the first night without a goodnight kiss in a very long time.  Going out tonight was really nice, and Steve, Steve and Mike made me feel great, but the perk of being able to wear lipstick because you're not going to inconvenience anyone who tries to kiss you.... well that perk begins to fade as the night draws to a close.  Watching Ali and Pat walk off together reminded me that my situation was far different, and although at one time Steve and I were like that, much time has changed all that.
 
The movie was far from impressive.  Sure there were moments of visual grace, but for the most part it was just like every other will smith movie.  It's the formula for light humored action films.  Don't want you're viewers to be weighed down by the intensity of the dilemma?  Make the main man black, the head duo bi-racial and do everything you can to make the chief protagonists of another species.  Be sure to include artsy fartsy matrix-esque special effects and introduce stereotypical characters such as the nice old "GeeGee" to soften the 'bend to no one' exterior of our hero.   And of course, what flic would be complete without the production team showing their complete lack of faith in the audience-- shown in a brief moment of revelation when the chief evil-doer explains to the hero that it is in fact humanity that has brought this upon itself because of how we kill one another and destroy our planet. 
 
Sigh.  Just once I would like for a movie to all-BUT give me the "moral" that I'm supposed to have walked away with... who knows- maybe we all are morons who just want to be assured that for our 12.50 we get an airconditioned seat and a buttered popcorn to ease the passage of our youth. 
 
It really just kept reminding me of Planet of the Apes.

the fried mozzarella sticks are hurting my stomach.
 
other than that-- i had a blast.  And I got an invite to drop by and shoot shit with steve whenever my house turns into a big mound of boring.  Good deal, indeed.  =-)
 
thanks guys... for showing me a good time and reminding me of how great he and I really are together.  oh man, im gonna really miss him by sunday.

One Man Guy

People will know when they see this show
The kind of a guy I am
They'll recognize just what I stand for and what I just can't stand
They'll perceive what I believe in
And what I know is true
And they'll recognize I'm a one man guy
Always was through and through

People meditate
Hey that's just great
Trying to find the inner you
People depend on family and friend
And other folks to pull them through
I don't know why I'm a one man guy
Or why I'm a one man show
But these three cubic feet of bone and blood and meat are all I love I know

'Cause I'm a one man guy in the morning
Same in the afternoon
One man guy when the sun goes down
I whistle me a one man tune
One man guy a one man guy
Only kind of guy to be
I'm a one man guy
I'm a one man guy
I'm a one man guy is me

I'm gonna bathe and shave
And dress myself and eat solo every night
Unplug the phone, sleep alone
Stay away out of sight
Sure it's kind of lonely
Yeah it's sort of sick
Being your own one and only
Is a dirty selfish trick

'Cause I'm a one man guy in the morning
Same in the afternoon
One man guy when the sun goes down
I whistle me a one man tune
One man guy a one man guy
Only kind of guy to be
I'm a one man guy
I'm a one man guy
I'm a one man guy is me

--rufus wainwright

Ok, so good for me for completely forgetting about the way kool concert I went to the other day and dwelling on life's lesser blessings.

first of all, if i have to be in close proximity with another 13 year old girl singing along to guster at the top of her high pitched snobby voice, i might just have to start kicking wildly. it was ridiculous, and painful. how is it that guster's harmonies can be so impressive and graceful, but their fans can be so one dimensional and shallow? Either way guster was a nice opener, and when rufus came out it was like outshining fireflies with a blow-torch.

He has the best voice ever, and he totally "sings his heart out, gives it his all" like ben folds said. He played a few songs off of his new album, well it'll be coming out soon so i guess i can call it his new album: Want Two. Some of the songs that he played that I knew were:

-Cigarettes and Chocolate Milk
-April Fools (which dan totally dug)
-Somewhere over the Rainbow (with his famous in her own right mom on piano ;Kate McGarrigle)
-Halellujah (which pleased us all very much)
-My Phone's On Vibrate For You (hehe so good)
-One Man Guy (with his brother and sister on backup, a song about his father Loudon Wainwright III)
-Pretty Things
-Gay Messiah's Coming
-Complainte de la butte
-and more that I can't recall.

Ben folds did a nice duet with rufus and had a good point in the song about people who talk too loud not giving a fuck, and the song gracie girl was definitely sweet. Other than that, a lot of his music sounded the same, and although rufus credited him with being a better pianist, he definitely wasn't as talented an artist or a performer.

i'll definitely go see rufus again. =-)

a letter sent to the President last night.

Dear Mr President

Fahrenheit 9/11

I saw the movie. I liked the part where they threw eggs at your car prior to your inauguration.

I am ashamed to admit it. Ordinarily I would be appalled at such behavior.

But you stole the election, and you have failed to protect us from Al Qaeda. Worse, you have taken us into an unjust war, based on lies and mistakes -- neither of which you can be especially proud of.

Your giveaways to the rich and powerful have undermined our economic security and have exacerbated the inequities of our economic system.

Your father was a good President, but you are not even a good liar.

Now you'll try to blame George Tenet but by now even a C student should know where the buck stops.

I can't wait to vote in November.


words i can't help understanding and supporting myself.

bugs keep biting me.
nasty critters

the wedding was awesome, though I doubt the DJ has the same sentiment. I'd hate to be that guy. But danny and rummy and a little dancing in the moonlight with my blue heaven, means good times for me.

yes, it's all well and good at the moment.
tons of family
tons of love
tons of reasons to feel like the luckiest in the world... well at least new jersey.