Chelsea Hotel

I remember you well in the Chelsea Hotel,
you were talking so brave and so sweet,
giving me head on the unmade bed,
while the limousines wait in the street.
Those were the reasons and that was New York,
we were running for the money and the flesh.
And that was called love for the workers in song
probably still is for those of them left.

Ah but you got away, didn't you babe,
you just turned your back on the crowd,
you got away, I never once heard you say,
I need you, I don't need you,
I need you, I don't need you
and all of that jiving around.

I remember you well in the Chelsea Hotel
you were famous, your heart was a legend.
You told me again you preferred handsome men
but for me you would make an exception.
And clenching your fist for the ones like us
who are oppressed by the figures of beauty,
you fixed yourself, you said, Well never mind,
we are ugly but we have the music.


bits of "chelsea hotel" -leonard cohen


oppressed by the figures of beauty... I like that.

I had a really good time tonight. Amending that last comment, I had a really good day in total. The New York Challenge was a wonderful idea and although Joe wasn't around tonight, and won't be around later to snuggle with, I had a really nice time hanging out with jim at his house in new brunswick for the past few hours.

It's not a game,
It's an operating system.

This is a big week that is beginning, although it's a very odd time (friday night) to be beginning a week, or much less anything else, other than the fixings of a hangover--- but an interesting week begins nonetheless. This week Joe will be in disneyworld enjoying sunshine and happiness of the disney variety, and I will be missing him and lonely. However in his absence my older brother will return from his adventures over in Taiwan, and that will be wonderful because I've realized that I miss him pathetically and deeply and that I really need my big brother, this family needs it's big brother. Also this week my younger brother dan and I will have our goodbye hurrah at PNC at the CSNY concert. Thursday my mother and dan and I will ride up to vermont with all of dan's necessary furnishings and help him settle into his dorm room, after having driven 6 hours up there and then to make the return journey shortly afterward. I am sure that on friday I will be sleeping and trying not to do anything taxing, other than spend time with my brother jim. and over the weekend I will toil away the hours at the pharmacy. Hopefully at some point suzanne or sean will want to hang out, or some other wonderful person, will come along and be kool with me.


sigh... i think i've reached the desired point when I cant stay awake any longer, and I have to go to bed immediately because there is no longer any threat that I might have to lie awake in bed for a little while and think about how lonely I feel. sigh.