Earth Angel

Earth Angel,
Earth Angel,
Will you be mine?
My darling dear,
Love you all the time.
I'm just a fool,
A fool in love with you.

Earth Angel,
Earth Angel,
The one I adore,
Love you forever
And evermore.
I'm just a fool,
A fool in love with you.

I fell for you
And I knew
The vision of your love, loveliness.
I hope and I pray
That someday
I'll be the vision of your hap, happiness.

Oh, Earth Angel,
Earth Angel,
Please be mine?
My darling dear,
Love you all the time.
I'm just a fool,
A fool in love with you.

---from back to the future (the enchantment under the sea dance)


Oh yeah... thats one of my top 5 most romantic moments in a move.
(and no.. "you complete me" is not one of them!)

There is my dream folks... to be someone's "vision of hap, happiness". It is a lot to ask. I'm not going to pretend otherwise. I've been in a very interesting music mood lately. Giving in to guilty pleasures from the start by downloading Barry White's "Your the first, the last, my everything", including "Let's hear it for the boy" from Footloose, and concluding with "(it dont matter if you're)Black or White" by none other than Michael Jackson.

So it seems that wicke was right, and that the kool thing to do in college is sit around and talk about god. Ok so maybe wicke didnt say god specifically, but I knew that I was doing something good tonight.

Tonight at the open mic night at Cabaret this really kool guy played "The next to be with you" by Mr. Big. We all sang along to the chorus... well I sang along loudly and I think someone else might have been singing too. Elizabeth didn't know the words so I sang loud enough to represent the two of us... then Andy Dick (or someone bearing a crazy resemblence) hit on us and told elizabeth that her guitar was crap... yeah all those college guys really know how to make a girl blush.

Then again if the guy who played Mr. Big had come over I think he would have made our entire half of the room blush..

"You can make my life worthwhile
I can make you start to ... smile"

yay... songs are so much better with bridges

There is something about that song that feels like my heart is singing... maybe its crazy likeness to "come to my window".. hehe

--Side note, come to my window (melissa etherindge sp?)can be sung to leaving las vegas (sheryl crow).... hmm

I get to go see my lover boy tomorrow.. hehe i am the luckiest.


I wanted to prove my own theory wrong.. the one that says you only blog when you're depressed.... but maybe i should have left that alone

It Had to Be You

It had to be you
It had to be you
I wandered around
and finally found
the sombody who
could make me be true
could make me be blue
and even be glad
just to be sad
thinking of you

Some others I've seen
Might never be mean
Might never be cross
or try to be the boss
but they wouldn't do
For nobody else
gave me a thrill
with all your faults
I love you still

It had to be you
wonderful you
It had to be you

I should be writing a paper, but i have to take the time to thank the god of love for all my blessings.
I can't really list them all. But there are lots of them, and they are wonderful..

QUOTES

one of my favorites:

Gwen: "because all of a sudden im hit with the realization that we're lovers. and not just sexually, although that means a lot to me. but i think about how loving you are, and how much i know i mean to you and how much you mean to me, and how my life is so much better with you in it, and then i dont want to be mad at u anymore, and once again your the love of my life that i just want to hold"

John: "I love you."



major sigh... sometimes you can go on and on, and other times the simple truth will do, and sometimes both are beautiful

Hurt

I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focused on the pain
The only thing thats real
The needles tears a hole
The old firmiliar sting
Try to kill it all away
But I remember everything

What have I become?
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt

I wear this crown of thorns
Upon my liar's chair
Full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
Beneath the stain of time
The feelings disappear
You are someone else
I am still right here

What have I become
My sweetest friend
Everyone I know
Goes away in the end
And you could have it all
My empire of dirt.
I will let you down.
I will make you hurt

If I could start again
A million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way

-nin/johnny cash


What have I become my sweetest friend?

I don't have anything if I don't have his love.

My purpose for breathing is clouded.

My eyes burn and my lungs sting and I just can't see tomorrow. I see nothing but the darkness surrounding the path I have chosen. The joy of it all has been slashed and now I'm lost.

I remember the first time i said that i thought i was falling in love with him. We were sitting on my futon and I said laughing, "ya know, its scary but i think i might just be falling in love with you"

if i could write a song about how much I loved him, or if i could sing one note that would bring him to realize my love- i would learn it so well that no one could ever shake it from me

what seems to destroy me is that i cannot love him more than i do.

He is the smile on my face

I seem to fail a lot, and yet he believes in me. Everything I could have ever even thought of feeling for anyone else is dead. My love has always been for him.

its a cold and its a broken hallelujah

The dreams I dream are of him and me. In these dreams life is worth living and love is worth sharing.

There will be no dreams tonight. I welcome no comforting thoughts, no gentle hope. My dream, my love rejects me tonight and as I have tried to come to him but cannot; I cannot dream.

It is a night like this when all of the trivial melt away and the true stand clean. I want to be clean. I want to be in his arms. I want him to feel its all alright. i need him to know that I will be here when he wants me back.

I know he needs time for himself, but im sick with the thought that he doesnt want to talk to me. I dont know what Im going to do.

i dont know what i can do. i want to be with him. i'd give anything.

there is no place i could be without him

You Were Right

And you were right to bide your time and not buy into my misery
Well the good things are never free
Do the colors of the rainbow look the same to everyone?

And i was rushing round in circles for a reason to believe
Wipe the slime from off your sleeve
You could follow me for weeks and I'm not going anywhere

Sometimes its hard to love someone
until the day that they are gone.

And I just had a dream the other night
I was married to the queen
and madonna lived next door
I think she took a shine to me
and the kids were all grown up
but I had to turn her down cuz I was still in love with you

I'm turnin madonna down
I'm callin it my best move
I'll get her tickets to what she needs

I remember doing nothing on the night
sinatra died
and the night
jeff buckley died
and the night
kurt cobain died
and the night
john lennon died

I remember I stayed up to watch the news with everyone
and that was a lot of nights
and that was a lot of lives
who lost the ticket to what they need

And I was busy finding answers
while you just got on with real life
always hoped you'd be my wife
but I never found the time
for the question to arrive
I just disquised it in this song.

And songs are never quite the answer
just a soundtrack to a life
that is over all too soon
helps to turn the days to night
while I was wrong and you were right

And this was a lesson learned
I'm happy to be your fool
and get you tickets to what you need.

I'm turning the lights down low
I'm ready to make my move
I'll get you tickets to what you need.

-- Badly Drawn Boy

yes, that is one of the best songs ever made. If you've never heard it, let me put it this way... ya know how the beatles and all those other kool bands used to make albums that all the songs flowed into one another? Well this song comes after "I was wrong". Hehe. Its amazing how the songs are similar in melody and lyric, but have very different feels to them. If you're interested in music, these are two good songs to check out.

ali g's birthday and katie's birthday are coming up!

my birthday is in november... you can celebrate it then. every once in a while it would fall on the "SMOKE OUT" day or the "HUG A TREE" day.... i hated that.

i had really good steak for dinner tonight. then i skipped out on the "healthy eating" work shop... hehe

one of the girls im friends with is named alexa. she has tequila under her bed, but shh we're not telling. she got drunk this weekend with some friends that came to visit her, and the paramedics were called (they call them if they find u drunk) and the guy gave her his phone number and told her to call him sometime. How great is that?? Being drunk and sick out of ur mind, and the guy holding ur head wants to jump in ur pants while you hurl ur guts?

i think im getting sick. im stressed out. a couple doors slammed in my face today. i havent really gotten to tell anyone about it.

"how much do u have to hurt me before you'll go away?"

"i'll never go away"

"well then i hope you brought ur own ramen"

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"You're not pregnant, dont worry about it"
"Well then where did the line go??"
"Um, away"
"Then I am pregnant."
".................no"
"Okay, thanks guys you're the best."


this is me... hehe i know i was shocked too... (we learned all about eros in class today after reading the symposium)


Aphrodite/Eros


?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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sigh.. i was wrong and you were right.

Crazy Love

I can hear her heart beat for a thousand miles
And the heavens open everytime she smiles
And when I come to her that's where I belong
Yet I run into her like a river's song

She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love
She give me love, love, love, love, crazy love

She's got a fine sense of humour when I'm feeling low down
And when I come to her when the sun goes down
She take away my trouble, take away my grief
Take away my heartache in the night like the theif

and I need her in the daytime
and I need her in the night
and I want to throw my arms around her
Kiss and hug her kiss and hug her tight

And when I'm returning from so far away
She gives me some sweet lovin' brightens up my day
Yes it makes me righteous, yes it makes me whole
Yes it makes me mellow down to my soul

--Van Morrison

Gravedigger

Cyrus Jones 1810 to 1913
Made his great grand children believe you could live to a hundred and three
A hundred and three is forever when you're just a little kid
so Cyrus Jones lived forever

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger

Muriel Stonewall 1903 to 1954
She lost both of her babies in the Second Great War
Now you should never have to watch your only children lowered in the ground
I mean you should never have to bury your own babies

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger

Ring around the rosies
Pocket full of posies
Ashes to ashes
We all fall down

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger

Little Mickey Carson '67 to '75
He rode his bike like the devil till the day he died
When he grows up he wants to be Mr. Vertigo on the flying trapeze
Nineteen forty to nineteen ninety.... two

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
I can feel the rain
I can feel the rain

Gravedigger
When you dig my grave
Could you make it shallow
So that I can feel the rain
Gravedigger
Gravedigger
Gravedigger

--Dave Matthews Band


Mmm morbid thoughts? Hope Im not scaring anyone. Its gonna be another long night. Why? Because those papers that I didnt write thursday, well I havent written them yet today either.

I'll get to that now... get back to this later