The Further I Slide -by Badly Drawn Boy

Starting to day we're on holiday
Everybody sees you in the wrong way
no one else sees you my way
ooooooo ooooooo ooooo

Your gazes cripple me
keep life a mystery
i dont want it to change
just keep em coming my way

but thats all a lie
i cant rationalize
the further i slide
i cant seem to get back to your side

cuz ur a summer child and im winter mild
i cant stay with the heat
as you blossom out around me

do do do do do do
do do do do do do
do do do do do

do do do do do do
do do do do do do
do do do do do
do do do do do

What if there is nothing after this?

Your gazes cripple me
keep life a mystery
i dont want it to change
just keep em coming my way


Last night was soo kool. The coffee house was awesome, and when it was time for me to go I totally wished i wasnt. I stayed later than I had originally thought i would because i was having a really good time. It was kool to hear Gabe play guitar, I cant wait to tell Age that I heard him. I wonder how the Saves the Day concert went? That was last night too.. I hope she and Brian had a good time, Im sure they did. I have to meet this boy before she runs off and marries him.

Joe's set was pretty good, and i was really glad i stayed to hear it. It was just really nice being with him. We saw Rich there, poor guy didnt seem to be happy (not that he normally does) so we went over and sat with him. Rich is so kool, he reminds me of joe. I felt bad at one point cuz i was interested in that rich had to say about the play and all, but at the same time i just wanted to be with... mr right.

I went to the party at nancymarie's and it was really fun. I played jenga and then liz sang for all of us "I dreamed a dream", the song she performed at the coffee house, and it started a trend and a lot of people were pulled "onstage" to sing something for us. It was so kool that everyone felt that comfortable.. and since we were basically musical people everyone sounded really good singing their favorite showtune or whathave you. Melissa sang a song from rent and it was phenominal... and i sang "I'd rather be blue" from the funny girl movie soundtrack... it was fun. John sang Amazing Grace, and it certainly was amazing. He is incredible, and such a nice guy. I drove kelly home and then came back and slept over. i waltzed with david and nancymarie waltzed with brian to the sleeping beauty waltz.. ya know the one that goes "i know you i walked with you once upon a dream..." it was a lot of fun. I think everyone had a really good time, i know i did. =-)

But i have to go to work in a little under an hour... till 7... ugh =-( but if i want gas in my car i have to do it. Sunday is the sms coffee house, i have to be a waitress-- so that'll be hectic, but it'll be nice if joe comes. jill might come too.. whata weekend!

im happy... david stopped me last night and remarked about how happy i was... "whats wrong with me"? lol

later friends, i must "away and part the glories of this happy day" --J.C. -will shakespeare

I've been listening to the koolest song all day.. it sounds like Sexual Healing so i just sing those lyrics over it..lol
Its quite the song...

Alright so I've learned my lesson well, not to blog what you dont want others to read and interpret and then call you on! I was under the impression that there was some sort of blogging xenia relationship established.. and if i was correct then some person i know would have engaged himself in war... lol but lets not make war... its friday after all.

I wrote a kick ass article on naz farm for the school paper, i didnt spend a lot of time on it, but i think its pretty good. I want the immediate gratification of seeing the finished product tomorrow though, and thats just not realistic.

i'll be bak later

joe stinks

I Was Wrong...

I'd always hoped I'd build my world around you
and its a miracle I ever found you
do the colors of the rainbow radiate to everyone?

Now i dont know how I could live without you
but certainly I know I'm not about to.
I dont believe in anything I see
unless I can feel it too.

You Were Right

And you
Were right to bide your time and not buy into my misery.
Well the good things are never free.
Do the colors of the rainbow look the same to everyone?

And I
Was rushing round in circles for a reason to believe.
Wipe the slime from off your sleeve.
You could follow me for weeks
and I'm not going anywhere.

Sometimes its hard to love someone
till the day that they are gone.

And I
Just had a dream the other night
I was married to the queen
and Madonna lived next door.
I think she took a shine to me,
and the kids were all grown up,
but I had to turn her down
cuz I was still in love with you.

I turned madonna down.
I'm callin it my best move.
I'll get a ticket for what she needs.

I
Remember doing nothing
on the night
sinatra died,
and the night
jeff buckley died,
and the night
kurt cobain died,
and the night
john lennon died,
I remember I stayed up to watch the news with everyone.

And that was a lot of nights,
and that was a lot of lives,
who lost the ticket to what they need.

And I was busy finding answers while you just got on with real life.
Always hoped you'd be my wife,
but I never found the time
for the question to arrive..
I just disquised it in this song

And songs are never quite the answer,
just the soundtrack to a life
that is over all too soon.
Helps to turn the days to night,
while I was wrong and you were right.

And this was a lesson learned.
I'm happy to be your fool.
And get you tickets to what you need.

I'm turnin the lights down low,
I'm ready to make my move,
I'll get you tickets to what you need

Badly Drawn Boy songs I Was Wrong leading into You Were Right


Its true, songs are just soundtrack to a life that is over much to soon, helpin to turn the day to night. Everyone says that music can make or break anything, a movie ... a play... so why shouldnt it hold true for life?

Cotillion is the red hot word of the moment. I didnt think I was going this year. But in every girl there is the desire for someone unexpected to appear and change everything. And every year I hope for that when I notice the cotillion approaching, but mr. right(-now) has traditionally not been punctual.. and i've had to understand that. Now, I've come to expect that mr rightnow isnt going to set his alarm, and im just gonna have to relish my fantasy and live my reality.

But then a day like last monday rolls around... and someone unexpected comes along and changes things. Suddenly my route through the halls is hung in suspension as i contemplate detours that will allow for time at least for a high five.-- is that so much to ask?

lol i didnt get to finish this blog, but i wanna take a shower.. so im gonna leave this the way it is.. all unfinished and unchecked.. hehe.. revel in my mess! oh dear

hey its me.. no time to write, no time to breathe.. lol-- just enough time to laugh

I spent a lot of today thinking. Thinking about the drama in my life as well as of my life. I thought about all the things I wish I could do on a day off from work, and all the things I end up doing. I thought about what song I would preform if I could capture an audience. I thought about my life in comparison to disney tales and musicals. I compared myself to Snow White, and Fanny Brice. I thought about the boys in my life, and the men. I thought about the differences between the two. There werent many. Then I dwelt on my romance longer and thought about all the similarities between the guys I've pined for. Trying to find the qualities that render me so defenseless, and those that irritate me to no end. I've pined for republicans, democrats, poets, cinics, dreamers and realists, science buffs, and drama kings, the irish, the italians and the brazilian, and when I think of them i wonder if Im better off alone?

""Giving Up On Love"

these past few weeks
I've been confused
sometimes I wonder if
I'm better off alone.

you fall in love
then break your heart.
you fall in love again
its never ending.

I used to have this friend
who took his fiance
to see billy idol
a couple weeks before
their wedding day.
the chick got backstage
and left my friend outside.
next day he called
from a hotel
asking for a ride.

I guess I'm giving up on love [x3]
'cause it really kind of sucks

uninspired
and growing tired
why am I always
so attracted to drama?

so here I am
grown up at 18*
will someone tell me
what it takes to be happy?

I play in my band
and write a lot of songs
about relationships
and how mine went wrong.
maybe I'll meet that special
girl along the way
then she'll break my heart
and leave me crying.

*edited for my own relation... even though i didnt edit all the "girls" to "guys" but its just not that important

----this was the last blog i had wanted to post on my first blog... sniff sniff

I had to start this blog cuz my other one is dead. I'll post more tomorrow... how sad this is