Pitseleh

I'll tell you why I don't want to know where you are
I got a joke I been dying to tell you
a silent kid is looking down the barrel
to make the noise that I kept so quiet
I kept it from you, pitseleh
I'm not what's missing from your life now
I could never be the puzzle pieces
they say that god makes problems
just to see what you can stand
before you do as the devil pleases
and give up the thing you love
but no one deserves it
the first time I saw you I knew it would never last
I'm not half what I wish I was
I'm so angry
I don't think it'll ever pass
and i was bad news for you just because
I never meant to hurt you

--elliot smith



elliot smith will be missed.
goodnight and godbless.

20 Good Ones
-----------------------

1- "I can make you satisfied in everything you do.
All you secret wishes could right now be coming true
and be forever with my poison arms around you"
--------------------angeles

2- "Oh my nothing else could have been done
made his life a lie so he might never have
to know anyone. Made his life the lie you know"
--------------------happiness

3- "What i used to be will pass away and then you'll see
that all i want now is happiness for you and me"
--------------------happiness

4- "They took your life apart and called your failures art"
--------------------tomorrow tomorrow

5- "Everybody knows you only live a day
but its brilliant anyway"
--------------------independence day

6- "Looking for the man that attacked me
while everybody was laughing at me
he beat it in me that part of you
but i'm gonna split us back in two.
--------------------2:45 am

7- "I'm tired of living in a cloud
if you're going to say shit now
you do it out loud"
--------------------2:45 am

8- "Everybody cares everybody understands
yes everybody cares about you
yeah and whether or not you want them to
its a chemical embrace that kicks you in the head
to a pure synthetic sympathy
that infuriates you totally
and a quiet lie that makes you want to scream and shout"
--------------------13

9- "Oh we're so very precious you and I
and everything that you do
makes me want to die
oh i just told the biggest lie
i just told the biggest lie."
--------------------the biggest lie

10- "For someone half as smart, you'd be a work of art"
--------------------baby britain

11- "Drink up baby stay up all night
with the things you could do,
you won't -but you might
the potential you'll be
but you'll never see
the promises you'll only make."
--------------------between the bars

12- " You can do what you want to, whenever you want to.
You can do what you want to, there's no one to stop you.
Do what you want to whenever you want to, though it doesn't
mean a thing. Big nothing"
--------------------big nothing

13- "So sick and tired of all these pictures of me, completely wrong,
totally wrong. Everyone is dying just to get the disease"
--------------------pictures of me

14- "I know you dont think you did me wrong, that I can't stay this mad
for long, keeping a hold of what you just let go.-you're just somebody
that I used to know."
--------------------somebody that i used to know

15- "Everything means nothing to me."
--------------------everything means nothing to me

16- "I'm never gonna know you know, but I'm gonna love you anyhow."
--------------------im gonna love you anyhow

17- "I'm in love with the world through the eyes of a girl
who's still around the morning after."
--------------------say yes

18- "Thought you'd be looking for the next in line to love,
then ignore, put out and put away. And so you'd soon be
leaving me alone like I'm supposed to be, tonight tomorrow
and every day. There's nothing here that you'll miss, I can guarantee
you this is a cloud of smoke. Trying to occupy space, whata fucking
joke, whata fucking joke."
--------------------i didnt understand

19- "Cuz my feelings never change a bit, I always feel like shit
I don't know why I guess that I just do. You once talked to me
about love and painted pictures of a never-never land.
And I could have gone to that place, but I didnt understand."
--------------------i didnt understand

20- "Last call, he was sick of it all, asleep at home. Told you all
goodbye. Oh you know one day it'll come to haunt you that
you didnt tell him quite the truth."
--------------------last call

I have two (2) tickets currently available for the Joys Lament show

Nov. 2, 2003
Hamilton St. Cafe
Show begins at 2pm
7 dollars a ticket

wanna go ? wanna go? wanna go?

i'll be there u know!

’and I am not frightened of dying, any time will do, i
Don’t mind. why should I be frightened of dying?
There’s no reason for it, you’ve gotta go sometime.’
’i never said I was frightened of dying.’

MUSIC!


and so another one act will happily consume me, only to blush in comparison to asylum. You all have to come out and support ally and me on nov 14, 15, 21, or 22. The 17th is my 19th birthday.... not the other way around!

Im managing to put all my friends through the true test. We'll see how many of them can take it. I've begun to come clean. I'm encouraging it. Don't you want to say whats weighing you down? You'll never be free. Don't run away, just let it fall.

Whats in in blogging? Being "uncomfortably deep" is the new sex. No, that wasn't some dumb innuendo. Yeah its true, I'm self-absorbed. I dont think i need the army tho. I appreciate ur listening. Just cuz we're irish women. . .

only barry understands me...

barry manilow, barry white... u know what i'm talking 'bout...

undying love always seems like such a good idea at the time.

let me take this opportunity to thank all of my friends who think joe and i are bad for each other. Thank you for caring.

its the 21st... u know what that means.........

everyone is dying just to get the disease...

Another day another way to make it through
If you could be there you'd know it too
I'll go away when it's all done
And you'll fight your nightmares in the sun

So much said in such a short time
And I'm feeling down with rhyme
Thinking about things that have no place
In my house of work or tender space

I'll want for you and cry those tears
You'll spin me fast and confuse my cares
And I'll lose the sun among the skies
And looks that float from ocean eyes


There is something about the word "romance" that makes some men shake in their boots. Is it the hard "rrrr" sound? Does it remind you of pirates and walking planks and therefore make your stomach queasy with sea-sickness?

Maybe romance is unappealing because it gets boxed in with black velvet, french cuisine and italian opera and that makes guys want to kick romeo in the balls and click on the man show.

I don't know. All I know is that you don't have to spend a lot of money to be romantic. And that having two guys fight over you is soo over-rated that relishing the thought of it... real shallow.

Real romance doesnt need a blue lagoon, or a star-lit sky, or a castle with a dragon and a moat. Real romance consists of a bit of love, a dash of planning, a pinch of magic and two arms full of the best intentions. Without this, that candlelit dinner is lamb (ugh) and ur just out of luck. But with it, a picnic and one on one frisbee football is a fairy tale.

What is romance?

"i define romance as unneccessarily showy, ornate, and publicly demonstrated
acts of kindness toward someone you would eventually like to 'bang'"
----------Anonymous Rutgers Student

"a passionate fondness"
----------Webster

"Looking to make someone you love happy, planning and "
----------Anonymous Rutgers Student #2