BONANZA

ah, nothing like cowboy tv shows to keep one from packing for school.

I just took bobby mcfarrin's advice and "be'd happy" while my mother cut my hair. Oh yeah, I'm proud of myself-- saving money and getting a kickass new 'do'. It's a tad bit shorter than I'd originally thought I wanted.. but its funny how that changes when your mother cuts your hair impulsively. hehe but hey, change is good, and putting faith in other people not to turn you into a chia pet is good for you.

feeling somewhat freed of the stress that has been buggin me and caused me to melt down a little bit last night-- I feel fresh and optimistic. I'm on the brink of another beginning, and my usual feelings of angst and worry have subsided to a strange sense of comfort and confidence. The hardest part coming will be not seeing joe every day, but after spending this past week sleeping alone, though only a bed away.... still alone, I feel like I've begun to ease myself with the idea of falling asleep talking to a girlfriend than talking to a boyfriend. Christina and I will be good for each other. I'm looking forward to the fun we're gonna have.

And Im looking forward to losing weight like last year. Good god, summer has been so bad for my figure. its kinda funny cuz it's the opposite of most people. When i go to school I walk around so much more, eat less crap (or excellent food) and hopefully I'll go to the gym even more than last year.

so good times right around the corner... and speaking of turning the corner, I should be doing that right now and moving on to packing for school.... grrr.... alright this wasnt as empowering and light-shedding as I thought this entry was going to be. I guess I can't really express my fresh new feeling. oh well... it's good. thats all i can say.