Embraceable You .... Gershwin
(done best by Charlie Parker, Ella Fitzgerald)

Embrace me, my sweet embraceable you
Embrace me, you irreplaceable you

Just one look at you
My heart grew tipsy in me
You and you alone
Bring out the Gypsy in me

I love all the many charms about you
Above all, I want my arms about you

Don't be a naughty baby
Come to mama, come to mama do
My sweet embraceable you

I love all the many charms about you
Above all, I want my arms about you

Don't be a naughty baby
Come to mama, come to mama do
My sweet embraceable you

that song just rocks.. in a gen purcell kinda way. if u dont know what that means download more ella fitzgerald, eat milky ways till ur sick and kiss the best looking guy u can find.

so I said to him: "hmm 400 dollars.... can u take a check?"
and guess what happened next?

Yeah.. so this isnt the entire song.. but hey these are the lyrics i really dig...

part of "grey street" by DMB

Begging now the difference
She prays to God most everynight
Although she swears He doesn't listen
There's hope in her that He just might

So come, live again
Take what you can from your dreams
Make it real and insane
Takes the work out of the courage

And the wrong in her whole plan
Is as hopeless as the day she came
And the man she calls her father
Ignores her and ignores her pain

So, if you don't see your Heaven
Don't convince yourself you're done
Just 'cause the things around you seem heavy
Doesn't mean you can give up this ground

and it breaks her heart.

Im tired and I think I might be grounded. Im starting to refer to her in my head as "mother" and thats rather cold so I stop myself.. but its becoming the way i think of her.. mommy dearest. I came home tonight and it was just another fight I didnt want to win but couldnt stand to lose. So here I am.. when I had planned to be at the music ministry thingy. Oh well.. I wasnt sure why she didnt ground me for the weekend, and then my dad called (notice not my father but my dad) and said "hey gen.. we still on for this weekend?" ------suddenly everything became much clearer.

So I dont think my dad really has plans for this weekend other than some lazer tag sunday i think... but it will be nice to see him. =-) Im tired... I feel good tho.. I think I can definately handle these fights with my mom if I feel so good going into them.. lol

"it was really sweet.. we just laughed and he held me tight and then..."
"and then what???"
"and then I had one of those moments"
"what do you mean.. what kind ???"
"you know, those moments when all your doubts fade away and you just know"
"ohh.. one of THOSE moments.. =-)"


olive juice my friends olive juice

In my life

There are places I'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more
--beatles

Its the 22nd of January. =-)


The world was a nice place today. I felt so high above things... my little worries about exams were shrugged off my shoulders and I think thats for the best, since I didnt really study for them anyway. My mind has been wondering all day... thoughts racing through my mind faster than I could ever run .. and I have been known to hoof it when the time comes.

I feel so warm and good... confidant and happy. I really like myself when I feel like this..lol

At rehearsal today during hand jive "he" came over and watched david and I exclusively... there we were in the aisle doing our fun lil thing and I turn around and there he is only a foot away .. i almost fell over. lol and david totally saw him and didnt tell me.. let me have a heartattack... later he came over and told david and i that we were so much fun to watch... which made me feel 1 million times better because I really like feedback after i get any special attention.. otherwise my imagination takes control of me and i over analyze and god knows what happens then... hehe

I know that at this point my blog would be bursting with tales of woe or tales of joe or both ... but since it is the 22nd I think im going to keep my wonderful thoughts to myself and just smile for a couple hours.

i think im developing a new love for orange juice...

i need to learn how to "strut" ... good god i'll be a sight in the hallways tomorrow.

there's no place that I could dream without you

'olive juice'