I dont know what to do with myself. All this free time. I am tempted to sleep, but I hear that it isnt good for you to nap during the day unless you're sick.. oh who really knows what they are talking about.

While we are all out on St. Patrick's day searching for little leprechauns .. what are the little leprechauns out looking for?


little women


Yeah its no longer st patrick's day but i like to celebrate things for a long time. I have to start thinking about what I want to say at the senior circle. I think we're going shopping tomorrow to get gifts for everyone...im gonna try to go.

Betcha can't say this 5 times fast....
"The sow's stout snout snores snorts."
--if u can u can have my cracker jacks prize... =-)

I talked to John today. I havent talked to him in a few weeks. I dont really see him much, even though Im at st joes every morning. =-) I miss him, not that im going to do much about it... but it'd be nice to talk to him more. Maybe this summer. Age is determined to get me to go to a concert with her. Im not avoiding it, I just dont have a lot of money. =-)

Hmm i've noticed that alot of my guy friends call me "kid". I kinda feel like i should be standing in a sand-lot with my older brother's friends, ya know I'd be wearing overalls, a sideways baseball cap revealing my ratty ponytail and I'd be lugging their bats around. Yep.. "kid". Its kinda funny too cuz these guys say it affectionately.. its their diminutive for me I guess. I dunno what im getting at, it just occured to me today. I wonder what i would call me if I wasnt me.... and wanted to call me ... hmm thoughts to ponder

So you're standing there- just looking at me
and here I am.. standing here being looked at.
So what now? Should I say something?
Should I hold onto this kool silence and anticipate its break?
Do I still look kool? Oh man, maybe Im trying too hard now.
I must be trying too hard. I probably look goofy now. STOP THINKING.

Much better. Im calm and distant. Cool and aloof. Disconnected.
Safe.

happy music trails off and here I am again. Tempermental? I dont know if I'd use that word... I would just say that not much in my life stays the same for very long. Maybe thats it. Maybe the world is just a tempermental place.. and i just get swept up in it once every three sneezes.

hmm... gazoontite

Can't Believe You Are In Love With Me


Your eyes are blue your kisses too
I never knew what they could do
I can't believe that you're in love with me

You are telling everyone I know
I'm on your mind each place you go
They can't believe that you're in love with me

I have always placed you
Far above me
I just can't imagine that you love me

And after all is said and done
To think that I'm the lucky one
I can't believe that you're in love with me =-)

--joe williams

(undoubtedly the best singer ever to sing with count basie.. just my golden opinion)

Wow this weekend was just a whole lot of goodness. The play friday night which rocked my world (even with messups) and then i stayed up till 2 am talking to my dad about the play and life and things.. he said some really nice things about me.. and it really makes u appreciate someone when they say nice things that they have noticed about you, and they are things u agree with.. cuz then you know that this person really knows u well. That might have been a difficult concept to follow... but the sentiment is pretty common.

Saturday was breakfast with the fam, and then walmart and long horn armidillos with joe and then the play which once again rocked my world.. and then chilis which just made me feel good as only chilis can. I drove home and my eyes were barely open, but i'll save the drama for the play cuz obviously I didnt kill myself. Today was really kool cuz breakfast with the fam.. then the play and then dinner with the fam and joe. hehe what a good boy. Then tonight I went to youth ministry to lead an "open talk" which involved a whole lot more of me talking than ideal.. though i think it went really well. I had ali g there to keep me honest with all my english class references. I mentioned 3 stories.. 1-wicke's dont be so shy freshman year u'll never break out of the label story, 2- pushing joe in a shopping cart through evil walmart and receiving evil looks from the ultra feminists and 3-the wizard of oz allegory for the search for a song and dance god to use his booming voice to melt ur troubles away.

my dad once told me he thought i should be a minister. He said that i might want to look outside the faith and become a female priest or something.. i love my dad. He so wants me to achieve my potential that he'd close no door to me. I actually think about it sometimes. I used to think I wanted to be a nun. But I want it all. So I'll just continue to be me. (yes yes i know.. dont applaud so loudly!)

--yes i just said loudLY. . . i am a nerd at heart too ya know!

1- Gen ' e vive P.
2- Genesaurus Purcellus
3- Nothing Outlasts """PURACEL"""
---------------GENerator of choice

all i can say is "thou swell, thou witty, thou sweet, thou grand"