yup

Wasting Time

yeah

i'm just a waste of her energy
and she's just wasting my time
so why don't we get together
and we could waste everything tonight
and we could waste
and we could waste it all tonight

i don't pretend to know what you know
now please don't pretend to know what's on my mind
if we already knew everything that everybody knows
we would have nothing to learn tonight
and we would have nothing to show tonight

but everybody thinks that everybody knows
about everybody else but nobody knows
anything about themselves
because they're all worried about everybody else

love is just a waste of our energy
and life is just a waste of our time
so why don't we get together
and we could waste everything tonight
and we could waste
and we could waste it all...

but everybody thinks that everybody knows
about everybody else but nobody knows
anything about themselves
because they're all worried about everybody else

--Jack Johnson

Graduation is tomorrow. What will be will be and so it goes.
I found a summer poem in my archives from my old blog... it made me smile. I had it up here.. but i then decided against it. The "he" has changed and I've learned some things but Im the same person. I think too much.. I just want to be. I just want to be what I am.. a fool for you.

Look at me dreaming of you
All I could hope is to have you
To have you walking with me
Laughing so in love we two
Almost drunkenly I did imbibe of this
Fantasy of you only
--DMB

QUOTES OUT OF THE KICK ASS ST JOES YEARBOOK

What lies behind us
and what lies before us
are tiny matterscompared
to what lies within us
--Ralph Waldo Emerson

You hang out with nice people, you get nice friends.
You hang out with smart people, you get smart friends.
You hang out with yo-yo people, you get yo-yo friends.
It's simple mathematics.
--Rocky I

God is a comedian playing to an audience too afraid to laugh.
--Voltaire

If you are going through hell,
keep going.
--Sir Winston Churchill

The problems that exist in the world today cannot be solved
by the level of thinking that created them.
--Albert Einstein

You're only scared to die when you ain't living right.
--Talib Kweli

Music washes away from the sould the dust of everyday life.
--Red Auerbach

What are you guys, some kind of exterminators?
No sir, we're the Ghostbusters.
--Peter Veinkmen

To seek, to strive, to find and not to yield.
--Ulysses

I don't know the key to success,
but the key to failure is to please everyone.
--Bill Cosby

Live as if you were to die tomorrow.
Learn as if you were to live forever.
--Mahatma Gandhi

Life moves pretty fast. If you don't stop and look around
once in a while, you might miss it.
--Ferris Bueller's Day Off

The surest way to corrupt youth is to instruct him to
hold in higher regard those who think alike than those
who think differently.
--Friedrich Nietzsche

Thunder is good, thunder is impressive
but it is the lightning that does the work.
--Mark Twain

If you ever drop your keys into a river of molten lava,
let 'em go because man, they're gone.
--Jack Handy

Knowledge is almost useless to the man whose only
quality it is.
--Adam Mickiewicz

Ideas are far more powerful than guns.
We dont allow our enemies to have guns; why should
we allow them to have ideas?
--Josef Stalin

No matter what anybody says, words and ideas
can change the world.
--Dead Poets Society

Tandeem Impetravi ut Egomet me Corrumperem
--Plautus Mercator

Sacred cows make the best hamburgers.
--Mark Twain

You were born an original.
Don't die a copy.
--John Mason

It is better to die in the jaws of a shark,
than in bed sleeping alone.
--Henry Hark Kuhn

I never let my schooling interfere with my education.
--Mark Twain

I hear and I forget.
I see and I remember.
I do and I understand.
--Confucius

Gather ye rosebuds while ye may...
--Robert Herrick... duh

AND FINALLY

There are no shortcuts
to anywhere
worth going.
--wouldnt u like to know

and if u read them all.. i love u that much

It's All Understood

Everyone laughed at her joke,
as if they’d never even heard it before.
And maybe they were truly amused
but every word that she spoke was a bore.
And maybe it’s because they had seen
the previews on the TV screen.
Well this part is good and that’s well understood so you should laugh
if you know what I mean.
But its all relative
even if you don’t understand.
Well its all understood,
especially when you don’t understand.
And its all just because,
even if we don’t understand,
then let’s all just believe.

Everyone knows what went down,
because the news was spread all over town.
And fact is only what you believe.
And fact and fiction work as a team.
Its almost always fiction in the end.
The content begins to bend.
When context is never the same.
And its all relative
even if we don’t understand.
And its all understood,
especially when we don’t understand.
And its all just because,
even if we don’t understand.
Then let’s all just believe

I was reading a book.
Well, maybe it was a magazine.
Suggestions on where to place faith,
suggestions on what to believe.
But I read somewhere that you’ve got to beware.
You can’t believe anything you read.
But the good book is good and that’s well understood,
so don’t even question if you know what I mean.
But its all relative,
even if you don’t understand.
Well its all understood,
especially when you don’t understand.
Well its all just because,
even if we don’t understand.
Let’s all just believe.

But there you go once again you missed the point,
and then you point your fingers at me and say that I said not to believe.
But there you go once again you missed the point,
and then you point your fingers at me and you say that I said not to believe.
I believe.

But there you go once again you missed the point,
and then you point your fingers at me and you say that I said not to believe.

I believe...I guess.

I guess its all relative.

-----Jack Johnson


Its hard not knowing what to believe. Lonely streaks on my face cry for understanding. I used to pray for understanding. I dont really pray much anymore. I guess I'm looking to be inspired... I want that feeling that others seem to have. It comforts them. I think that is a part of the innocence (or ignorance) and joy of childhood.

I have to be responsible now. I have a responsibility to myself and others to be true to myself and I've been pushing myself lately. Im lucky to have people who really care about me around to reassure me when things dont go the way I thought they would. I have people around me to hold my head up when I want to look away and I feel ashamed. I have people around me to feed me cookies and salt water taffy when I don't understand my shortcomings. People who can tell that I need them even before I want them to know. They seem to know I need them before I know I do. I am fortunate to have loving people who remember me when im forgotten. All of these people know that I love them, I've told them and they should know that I appreciate everything they do for me, but I just dont know. I ruin things. I mean well.

My heart feels like someone has reached down and gently given it the touch it needs to go on. I wish I could see myself through their eyes just once.

maybe they were truly amused.. but every word she spoke was a bore.

Fact and fiction work as a team


i want to slow dance in the rain

"Times Like These"

In times like these
In times like those
What will be will be
And so it goes
And it always goes on and on...
On and on it goes

And there has always been laughing, crying, birth, and dying
Boys and girls with hearts that take and give and break
And heal and grow and recreate and raise and nurture
But then hurt from time to time like these
And times like those
And what will be will be
And so it goes

And there will always be stop and go and fast and slow
Action,Reaction, sticks and stones and broken bones
Those for peace and those for war
And god bless these ones, not those ones
But these ones made times like these
And times like those
What will be will be
And so it goes
And it always goes on and on...
On and on it goes

But somehow I know it won't be the same
Somehow I know it will never be the same.
Jack Johnson


the summer before freshman year i lost all of my best friends
so when i get close to people, i guess i get kinda selfish with them.
I dont share well...or hardly.

Being without a car is rough... I miss my independence.

I am one of those people that can't just enjoy a fairy tale.. i want to live one. lol sigh

today this guy named Ben came into the pharmacy. I recognized him in an instant because he was BEN.... the boy that everyone had a huge crush on back in the 6th grade or so at that parks and rec camp i went to. Ah yes, it was all coming back to me... he had beautiful eyes and they always managed never to look at me. hehe Yes it was a very safe crush. He was (or is, since today he proved that he still very much exists) a year older than me. So I decided that I was going to ask him if he was Ben when he came back to the counter. I briefly imagined telling him that I had once been the small girl who had a longstanding crush on him, but when he suddenly appeared across the counter from me holding the one item he had come to my store in search of.... I lost the courage to say anything more than "will this be cash?". I almost couldnt read the numbers on the little price sticker because I couldnt believe that I was actually selling BEN condoms. Not just any condoms... but "large" condoms. I almost died. I begged my face to stay calm and cool and resist the quickly overpowering urge to smile. I was breathing so carefully that eventually I couldnt help it and a smile crept onto my face and as he walked out I said to him, under my breath.... "have a magical day... ben"

sigh...

some days... i love my job

hey hey hey

come on try a little

nothing is forever

there's got to be something better

...

we can drive it home with one headlight