There has been a lot of fighting going on today. My mom and my step-dad, my mom and my brother, my mom and myself, though we are a little less yelling and a little more scolding. My mom is having a rough day. But then again, so is josh. And then again, so am I.

Rod is coming back tonight, dan wont be back for days, and so I'm keeping to myself. Maybe it's selfish of me. Maybe I should be with josh right now, but honestly I don't feel like if I was with him I'd be able to help. My mom needs to go out and do something. Maybe I should take josh out for hot chocolate. That's a good idea.

"you stand around your haunted home
those demons wont leave you alone"

coincidence that i found this song on my desktop, couldnt remember what it was, and it has so much relevance?

I feel like calling maggie. I miss her. I'm glad its christmas and i'll see everyone, though i wish i had more money and could have gotten them nicer gifts.

okay im hating myself every moment im not getting josh hot chocolate, so i'm off.