Showers are ideal for thinking.

topics of thought:

- forgiveness... I have learned how to give it, and when to give it, and when it is the only thing possible cuz after all, if I can be fortunate enough to get a second chance at friendship, how could I refuse anyone else?

- war... words... limitations of language, limitations of thought, undescribability of action... complete lack of reason... arbitrariness of life... atrocity, sympathy, empathy? Desire to find meaning within patterned arbitrariness.

war

-product of imagined communities?
-abstract but necessary for survival
-desire for self destruction
-limitation on self, creation of the other
-creation of the soldier, destruction of the civilian
-civil warring

is not all war decided by a preferencing of one child over another?
there is no real life, just a perception of information sorted and analyzed down into specific meaning... and the more specific the meaning is, the more likely that aspects are neglected, forgotten, or missed entirely.

arguments, self-realization, shame... embarrassment...emotion?
truth as tropes? is it all one man's perception against another?
what is it that binds us and is it destroyed through the creation of the other?

who will die for this girl?

if one dies, don't we all die?

This blog isn't fluid at all. but the thoughts come so rapidly. sigh.