Catharsis isnt catharsus.

does it make you nervous when someone you know is in ur class... doesnt show up to the final?
does it make you jealous that you weren't smart enough to figure out a way to stay home too?
I just want my papers back. All those other tests are just puzzles.

Life is really short. Sometimes it scares me how short it is. I mean, Im used to short things.. I'm short myself actually. However I like to think that Im somewhat charming.. I'd like my life to be charming as well. I think about guys like Blake and Derrida, and Hume and all those guys who really made an impact... guys who had something inside them they just had to put out there. Bob Dylan. People who make our lives enriched without even knowing us.

Its this sort of relationship between minds that is more than important, it's life. Everything is in our minds... from our feelings for our family members- to our feelings for our country. Both imagined communities. All the world is an imagined community.

So what? What kind of relief does this bring when people are starving to death every day, or being killed in wars that are after a different flavor gold? What judge sentences a man or woman or child to die and goes to bed thinking "it's all in my head"? What woman, crying herself to sleep over a lost love, laughs when she realizes it was all her imagination. How cold can you get gen?

I'm not saying that the horrors of this world are lessened by the fact that all of the traumas in the world exist only in our minds... but that because they exist in our heads, we will forever be plagued by them until we are able to disconnect ourselves from the logic of our minds. Nietzsche said the same thing when he described the 'screen of perception' that is the logic of our minds and how impenetrable it really is because it does not exist between ourselves and reality but within our minds. It is the very workings of our minds that we cannot get beyond. Then again, he went crazy. Maybe that's the answer.

Once someone gave advice that supposedly holds in all situations: "And this too will pass".
If you're looking for assurances... take hold of this one. But I'm still caught up in the questions.