You Know So Well

Use every chance you've been given
she replied after several days
It's no good to be perfect
You know so well things are easy to tell
There is one thing I know
it goes like this; it's that
when I'm down and out it's you I miss...

I have told you this before
and my transparent mind
won't cover see-through hearts
I'll be straight with you now
Now I'm not what you want
just like the rest
and you feel like you're subject to a test
But if there's one thing I know it's this
When I lose my sleep it's you I miss...

You sleep all night
you know you lie awake
Tell me, yeah
And time is running out
and you know so well
it may never be

Use every chance you've been given
she is told, but it doesn't make her smile
She has no need to be perfect
She knows too well
things are easy to tell
I have said what I thought you should know
but you never seem to recognize my face

--sondre lerche or duncan sheik (who really cares)

at the moment im not working on the paper i should be working on at the moment, which I'd like to think brings delight into the hearts of the people I've pissed off at the moment, those people who I've adeptly pushed away... however these people deserve more credit than that, and so I've probably only insulted them and not embarrassed them... just myself.

wow. my brother just made me smile. he sent me this:
So I was freeclimbing Mt Vesuvius, when I suddenly lost my grip, so I'm falling and falling, and then I start to think. Hey, haven't you been smoking peyote for the last six days, and isn't it a possibility that this is all in your head? And it turned out I was right. I've never even been to Mt Vesuvius. . .

zoolander. all that seems so far from me now. its nice to think about. my thoughts are fragmentary tonight. I havent done any work all day really. Well nothing thats gonna count for shit. I should drop this and go back to my paper. I've created enough zombies and ice queens for the time being.

my dad had interesting thoughts on the idea.

is it all make believe
is it all make believe
dont abuse the trust i place in you

is it all make believe
tell me now make believe
i'm a tent of pain you are the pegs
if i should stop to breathe
just to get over it
i wouldnt wait for you
cuz you never ask me to

a little more sondre lerche to get me deep down there. enough now. rosebud.