Golden Slumbers

Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Golden slumbers fill your eyes
Smiles awake you when you rise
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

Once there was a way to get back homeward
Once there was a way to get back home
Sleep pretty darling do not cry
And I will sing a lullabye

-- the beatles

In the end, the love you take
is equal to the love you make.

I heard that song twice today. I was in the same spot both times... really strange.

sometimes the people who seem farthest from us reach out, while those who could be so close, push us away.

i dont really handle being pushed away very well. I'd like to say I'm happier this way. But we were friends.

so i didnt make the play, and my family is going to ireland-without me. Thinking about my family going to ireland without me was really hard for me, so I quickly thought up a bright side which now that I think about it, isnt as bright as going to ireland. I thought hey... i could have a party. but then i remembered.. i dont have parties. i dont even drink. ya know those kids we were in high school... well some of us were in high school. Those kids who weren't kool, didnt party, and didnt go down the shore after prom? yeah that kid.. well thats me, only the rest of those kids who were just like me-- went off to college and decided to become different people. so here i am. the kid u remember, being the person i've always been looking around to find the people i thought i knew.

i dont want to hold you and feel so helpless.

I was thinking about that show, Joan of Arcadia... i've actually seen it a few times and it's not that bad. It's a much better rendition of Touched By An Angel... same basic thought though... without all that creepy angel of death stuff. Yeah it's got potential... just so long as they shut it down before it becomes too heavy.

The rutgers community takes no prisoners. Don't let yourself become a prisoner. Then again, don't be a commuter either, cuz that just sucks.

i've been ur friend, and u've given me advice, but right now I'm upset with myself for not having the strength to put what feels right for me- above our friendship. Because I suspended that, and did for you what friends do in trust... i am disappointed in myself. But as fate would have it, even that's not good enough (which is true, because when someone does something they dont feel good about, it usually is pretty clear to all that it doesnt feel good)

i prefer to be remembered as a smiling face
not this fucking wreck that's taken its place.

i've heard no one comments cuz my blogs are too personal.
i guess its better for no one to comment and to leave things real
than to leave a superficial notice of one's inability to relate.

righto