No Lies Just Love

It was in the march of the winter
I turned seventeen
That I bought those things
I thought I would need

And I wrote a letter to my family
Said it's not your fault
And you've been good to me

It's just lately I've been feeling
Like I don't belong
Like the ground's not mine to walk upon

And I've heard that music
Echo through the house
Where my grandmother drank
By herself

And I sat watching a flower
As it was withering
I was embarrassed by its honesty

So I'd prefer to be remembered
as a smiling face
Not this fucking wreck
That's taken its place

So please forgive what I have done
No you can't stay mad at the setting sun
Cause we all get tired, I mean eventually
There is nothing left to do but sleep

But spring came bearing sunlight
Those persuasive rays
So I gave myself a few more days
My salvation it came, quite suddenly
When Justin spoke very plainly
He said "Of course it's your decision,
But just so you know,
If you decide to leave,
Soon I will follow"

I wrote this for a baby
Who has yet to be born
My brother's first child
I hope that womb's not too warm

Cause it's cold out here
And it'll be quite a shock
To breathe this air
To discover loss

So I'd like to make some changes
Before you arive
So when your new eyes meet mine
They won't see no lies
Just love.
Just love.

I will be pure
No, no, I know I will be pure
Like snow, like gold
Like snow, like gold
Like snow, like snow
Like gold, like gold, like gold

--Bright Eyes

That song made me cry. If you can, download it. You will feel.

I've been drawing a lot more lately. A lot. I've also been a lot more exhausted lately. The one I just finished is my favorite.

I don't know how anyone could commit suicide if you think about the babies that will be born to miss you. What kind of robot have we become?

"And these clocks keep unwinding and completely ignore
Everything that we hate or adore"

life moves quickly, we only get so much sleep safe in our beds.

I think I'd like to live to play with my grandchildren... but I don't think I need to play with my great grandchildren.

so much hurting. i want to give away all my money.

i'd like to make some changes, before you arrive .